thankful for the things that remind me of him
Yesterday I woke up from one of those dreams you never want to end.
I was getting ready for my (not happening anytime soon, so don't get any ideas) wedding, and my dad showed up to walk me down the aisle. As soon as my dream self saw him, she (I?) started bawling... doubled over in tears. I asked him how he was there and he said he'd been waiting for me. We were at his house and I said "have you been living here? you know it's not our house anymore, right?" and he said "yeah, on and off, and I saw your names on the door." (ignore my strange rationale thoughts during irrational dreams) I said "aren't you sick?" and he said "yes, but not too sick to walk you down the aisle"
I was surprised that I wasn't crying when I woke up.
All of this probably stemmed from the fact that I was reading an article about Lance Armstrong's doping scandal, remembering that he and Nate used to argue all the time about whether or not Lance was cheating. I can't decide if I wish Dad was around to hear the results or not. I think it would spark an interesting conversation about the differences between MLB and the use of steriods/HGH and cyclist's use of EPO and blood transfusions, but I also know how much Lance inspired Dad as a cancer survivor.
Not sure how my future wedding and Lance doping are connected, but go with me here.
As the time between today and the last time I saw him gets longer, I cherish these memories and "dream visits" even more.
I was getting ready for my (not happening anytime soon, so don't get any ideas) wedding, and my dad showed up to walk me down the aisle. As soon as my dream self saw him, she (I?) started bawling... doubled over in tears. I asked him how he was there and he said he'd been waiting for me. We were at his house and I said "have you been living here? you know it's not our house anymore, right?" and he said "yeah, on and off, and I saw your names on the door." (ignore my strange rationale thoughts during irrational dreams) I said "aren't you sick?" and he said "yes, but not too sick to walk you down the aisle"
I was surprised that I wasn't crying when I woke up.
All of this probably stemmed from the fact that I was reading an article about Lance Armstrong's doping scandal, remembering that he and Nate used to argue all the time about whether or not Lance was cheating. I can't decide if I wish Dad was around to hear the results or not. I think it would spark an interesting conversation about the differences between MLB and the use of steriods/HGH and cyclist's use of EPO and blood transfusions, but I also know how much Lance inspired Dad as a cancer survivor.
Not sure how my future wedding and Lance doping are connected, but go with me here.
As the time between today and the last time I saw him gets longer, I cherish these memories and "dream visits" even more.
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